Finding words of comfort

Last week, the stress level for me of a work-related issue hit the fan as they say. (sorry for the vagueness but that is how it will have to stay). It totally blindsided me and shook me to the core and it has been heavy on my mind and heart.

As you know since the beginning of this year, I have been going to counselling - it has been helpful sorting things out and beginning to find out abit of about me too. With the changing of my position at the hospital it has given me a rollercoaster ride for sure and I have been trying to use the tools my counsellor has been sharing with me, but the other one is what my friend Sara gave me - Celebrate for Recovery Steps. There are 2 sets of steps - one has 12 steps and the other one has 8 steps. I have the 8 steps in my wallet - the #1 step - Know you are not in control, only God is in control. One needs to trust in that when faced with a challenge in your life, of course easier said than done.

This past week in the morning as I wait for my bus shuttle to the hospital - I read those 8 steps and pray that I will find that "peace" once again. It has not always been natural for me - but I think I am seeing He is with me through my environment. Mother Nature might not have been nice for my visit with my mom - but being she has been in the health field for 45 yrs she was a source of comfort plus she is my mom. I also had friends keeping me in their prayers (thank you). But it is surprising where you can find a word of comfort.

After an important meeting on Monday, I was exhausted and drained - I stopped in for the first time at the Rockyview Site a little gift shop to buy a soft drink. While waiting in line I see a stand full of cards - one card just connected with me - so much so I bought it. Reading the words it felt like someone talking to me:

If I Could, I'd Make Everything Better for You.

If I had the words to bring comfort and peace to your heart, I would speak them.

If I had the knowledge to know what course would bring you happiness, I would share it.

If I had the ability to take away all that troubles you, I would do it.

If I had the means to show you all that is good within yourself, I would use it.

I don't have power to change the world or to control the path on which you wald.

But I have a hand willing to hold your own, an ear willing to listen, and a heart willing to care.

I'll Always be Here for You.

I have a counselling session tomorrow afternoon and Solomon's 4th birthday on the weekend. So thinking positive - moving forward - lessons learned for sure.