Remembering someone special

Today, is one of those days that will always be different from others. Hard to believe, but 12 years ago today my sister Kathryn passed away. Despite the years passed, it seems like yesterday. I still remember what the office felt like in Victoria, when I walked in to get the phone - just the sense that something was wrong. On the other end of the phone was my dad telling me my sister is now in heaven. Being a survivor of someone who took her life has not been easy, but with my family, friends and definitely my faith, I have learn to go on with my life enjoying all that is out there. Though her life was short, 21 years long, Kathryn did teach me to put your faith in God that He will be there for you. My mom shared with me one time just before Kathryn went to have her major back surgery, Kathryn told her not to worry that everything will be okay as it is in God's hand and He will be there with the surgeons. Surgery went great too. As her big sister, I miss our midnight talks and being able to share our thoughts and frustrations at times too. Kathryn was my sister but she was a special friend too. A family friend of ours had told me after the funeral, that Kathryn shared that she was concerned about me as I didn't sound happy out in Victoria. All she wanted was for me to be happy. Wow, what a statement! Kathryn, it has taken some time but I am at a place in my life that I am happy. I am learning to leave that comfort box at times to experience something new. With everything we have gone through as a family, you have taught me your life is not complete without your faith. Though you don't see it right away, God always is there for you by putting the people who have always been there or a person is there only to help you through that one particular moment in your life. It might seem silly, but thank you for being friends with Kimberly Pidgeon. She brought us both to Dorion Bible Camp where we became Christians but also developed friendships that were there for us when we needed them. For me, all of the James Family have been a blessing and a rock for me. Now that I live in Calgary where the James family are, I have never felt more closer to them, then I do now. They have become my second family - sharing laughs, and cries too; playing card games and scrabble just like our family did growing up. Thank you for loving me and being there for me James Family.

Kathryn, thanks for being a great sister and I cherish all those times together be it with tears or laughter. Even though you can not be here physically, I know when those special moments in my life occurs that you will be there in spirit sharing it with me like sisters do. Miss and love you much Kathryn. I will see you one day where we can be together once again.